she had tried
oh god
how she had tried
not to look to see
not to think to feel
to smell to taste
to want to need
to succumb
to surrender sanity
to relinquish reality to
that galvanizing first glance
the look
the lock of the eyes
that instantaneous knowing
the gnawing familiarity
the instant intimacy
for where could it lead?
but to no man’s land
no woman’s land
the land of denial
the land of self-denial
not to think to feel
to smell to taste
to want to need
to succumb
to surrender sanity
to relinquish reality to
that galvanizing first glance
the look
the lock of the eyes
that instantaneous knowing
the gnawing familiarity
the instant intimacy
for where could it lead?
but to no man’s land
no woman’s land
the land of denial
the land of self-denial
land of deceit deception
the land of no return
the isle of exile
this dangerous territory
to which they both were
foreigners in a foreign land
and so it was that
she took flight
bolted broke loose escaped
escaped with her soul intact
her virtue whole
her heart held ransom
vowing never to return
and now -
the land of no return
the isle of exile
this dangerous territory
to which they both were
foreigners in a foreign land
and so it was that
she took flight
bolted broke loose escaped
escaped with her soul intact
her virtue whole
her heart held ransom
vowing never to return
and now -
now
she tried
oh god
oh god
how she tried
to forget
to erase eradicate exterminate
but it was not to be
she was not set free
to erase eradicate exterminate
but it was not to be
she was not set free
prey to the polarizing pull
of cerulean circles
relentlessly pursued
relentlessly pursued
hunted stalked and found
by the blue angel of love
love amytal barbital veronal
love hypnotic
she had been ambushed
taken by brute force
ripped away ravaged by
its raging currents
taken to deep dark crevices
love hypnotic
she had been ambushed
taken by brute force
ripped away ravaged by
its raging currents
taken to deep dark crevices
she had never known
chasms long forgot
chasms long forgot
places where he awaited her
and now held captive
love’s captive
captivated
a creature confined
a prisoner held hostage
a prisoner held hostage
by the deep
endless
unfathomable
sea green oceans
of love and lust
of love and lust
[a re-post from "words unspoken" 12/13/2009]
12 comments:
What a beautifully frantic portrayal of love.
:)
These are your words, Jenean. Unmistakably yours. And that blue font only lends more to the words so unspeakably sad. I love it when you allow your words to appear as jagged on the surface as they are inside. Jagged feeling... and jagged visual. Beautiful, simply!
And thank you so much for your delightful visit! I do so appreciate it, Jenean.
Hugs,
Nevine
I quite agree with Nevine! Jenean your posts are always a treat for the senses, rich and provocative and moving. But to read your own creations, it is quite the pleasure as you truly have a way with words.
P.S. I keep checking my mailbox everyday, hoping to still get that card. Did the responses for "real" wishes become to daunting of a task, I wouldn't blame you if they did. I still have not gotten my cards out yet. Only 4 days left, oh well there is always The New Year greeting.
Warm Regards
Frantic portrayal: that fits. Beautifully done!
Wow, this was incredibly powerful and moving... It resonated within me so very strongly as it reflects so many feelings I carry within...
You are so very passionate and I love the images you paint with your words...
xoxo
hello kate from across the way! how wonderful to have you drop by - and especially to leave such kind words - i thank you! hugs -
dear nevine, you always always know exactly what is in my own heart - such a kindred spirit you are - and in this case, yes, jagged jagged words of jagged jagged feelings from deep within - and my heart thanks you for your own words!
dear cole! oh, and thank you too for your always kind words which do humble me so - so happy you enjoy this little corner of blogworld over here! and about my card, no, do not fear - they are coming closer to the new year - actually, they've not come from the printers yet! so i'm waiting with baited breath, as well - but they are for the new year so there is still time - i can't wait to get them and sit down with pen in hand to write my little notes in each one! hope this pre-holiday week is going well for you! a busy bustle over here!!! ;)
hmmmmm......trish - yes, frantic portrayal very aptly describes it, doesn't it! thank you so much for the kind words!
another kindred spirit you are, too, zuzana! i am so pleased that you find comfort/familiarity here - we are never alone in our hearts, are we? ;)
No matter how far away we may run, we take it with us in blurred reflections of yesterday, today, and tomorrow. Yes? Yes.
cj
YES!
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