but now...

could you not see what i could see
each time we met in secrecy
could you not feel the children's fears
each time we held each other dear
'tis not your fault
i entered knowingly into our vault
i entered willingly i cannot me exalt
but when i knew

t'would not be you
to say no more
it was i
who shut the door
forever more
what else
was i to do

 
but

i miss you

.

.

.

the rolling seas...

in you

my heart sets sail
  with midnight veil 

and holy grail

   into the dark of night
    the tempest flight
    in virgin white

 

  our chart

the distant shore
the magic lore
love evermore

our lives

the waves we ride
poseidon at our side
skies open wide

you are

my rolling seas
and

i

your

wild
banshee

.

.

.

love unlived...

you penetrate my dreams
permeate my silent screams
and glide into the ancient streams
                    
where love holds always your invite
and darkness holds its secrets tight
but like the wind regrets take flight

what has happened to my sight
did vision die without the light
and leave me now to this sad plight

nothing is as it seems
nothing left to redeem
when will it ever end
when will it ever end

never
he whispers
never

ever

.

.

.

these rags...

let me shed
these threadbare rags
the clothes of convention
wardrobe of society      
ecclesiastical attire
the dirty laundry of
women like me
of women
of me
of ME

these garments
that encumber me so
that stifle and stigmatize
that suffocate my soul
suffer me so

suffer my heart

rip them from my body
strip them away from the meat of my bones
tear them from my pure white flesh
the touch of them igniting burning branding
the texture of my thoughts

then throw them back
from whence they came
from whence they were sent
into the cesspools
of their own making
they have designed their own demise
and will inherit their own destruction
in their own way and in their own time

and i
i shall dress
i shall dress me
in the fabric of my imagination
the tapestry of tangible visions
woven from the heartstrings
of mine own spirit
i shall wear frocks of silken silence
shaped by voices unheard
sewn with the threads of
my heart’s love

dressing or not dressing

in my own way and in my own time

and i
i shall live  
i shall live by the dictates
of mine own heart
by the requisites of
love that guides me
bears me with its beauty
with its truth
upholding that which is good
which bears no evil
which loves for loves sake alone
giving all to love for love
asking nothing in return
loving as i go
in my own way and in my own time

and i
i shall love
i shall love you

YOU
.
.
.

feel me cry...

do you feel me cry in the day
from this dark place i hide in sin

and ache to find my way back in
where love alone has its way

do you feel me cry in the night
from this deep place i hide in woe
where whispers wrap me head to toe
and angels spread their wings in flight
do you feel me cry

~

do not think it so...

do not think me oh so sad
do not believe it was all bad

no - do not think me so
for i have been where few may go

i have touched the pure white snow
i have seen the mountain’s glow

do not think me satan-sent
do not believe that i repent

no - do not think it true
for i have been where cupids flew 

and i have been where few can dare
to shed their life’s blights and cares    
    
i have touched love’s heavenly gates
i have felt the hands of eros quake

where love’s grace did on me bestow
like luscious absinthe spread below

do not think me oh so sad
do not believe it was all bad

i have touched love’s heavenly facade
i have walked where angels trod

i have been loved true
i may now live anew

~

 

the gypsy and the ghost...

 he was but a ghost now
a spirit

without color without life

a revenant returning now and then
to that misty chamber in her heart
to remind her that she too
had once been alive
had once been
more than a mere apparition
without color without life
without love
but that

with his absence

she now like him

was but a

ghost

~

the game...

she could not run

she could not hide

from all that haunted her inside

strip away the woven webs

of all that dormant dread

and all the monsters that she fed

when to the devil she had wed

and even then

from her own den

she could not hide

she could not run

from what in sin she had begun

it was a game

she could not tame

.

.

.

left behind...

when i turned
and walked away
from you from us
that cold dark day

a piece of me
my broken heart
was in that instant       
left behind

left behind to
fuse with yours
for one of us
to have a whole

a broken whole
pieces entwined
to help us through
the shadow nights

the nights of love
left behind
   

to the one who's been there, too, in the land of 

- "shadow nights and cloudy days, long cold moments before the dawn" -

words...

all that is
within my heart
i say to you
each time
i look into
your eyes...

kissed...

by the darkness

of times gone by

i wait...

.

i...

cry

you

and

my 

heart 

bleeds

through...

tears of the lake...

cried by lovers whom love forsakes

life without love their sad sad fate

she now, like him...

he was but a ghost now -

a spirit - without color without life -

a revenant returning now and then

to that misty chamber in her heart

to remind her that she, too,

had once been alive -

had once been

more than a mere apparition

without color without life

without love -

but that, with his absence,

she, now, like him,

was but a ghost...

 

 

[a re-post from my "words unspoken" blog - enjoy!]

words unheard...

i cannot say aloud the words
that fill my heart
yet rip my soul apart

i cannot say aloud the words
that if I said
would leave us both dissolved instead

i cannot speak
in voices heard my love for you
yet in my silent screams I do

i cannot speak
of life within our stolen time
for we both know you are not mine

love unspoken
words unheard

i cannot live
a loveless life
so i go on in secret strife

i cannot live
in time stood still
yet all I have is life unfilled

the darkness of love...

darkness
came upon her
surrounded her
wrapped her
in its blanket of night
but still sleep
eluded her
evaded her
very soul
her heart racing
through thoughts of him
so far away
eyes closed
succumbed to
the darkness within
held softly in
the arms of
his own dreams
of her

lost now...

 

lost now -

the aroma of his light
that once had lit the way
out of her own darkness
the fragrance of his love
cast in a thousand wisps of windblown time
and with the loss of these
these filaments of her
there remained
only her mind
and her heart
her mind now shattered into fragments
emptied of its life flow
it, too, began to disintegrate to dissolve
into tarnished memories
memories tainted by that demon time
fading into the forest of forgotten faces
leaving only her heart
the heart that once beat to the drums
of ancient mariners
that beat as one with his
now slowed to shallow pulses
flickering dimly in the night of her sorrow
disappearing into the dank void
of what had been -

lost now

 

[feeling a bit "lost now" for words - 

hence, this re-posting of something over at "words unspoken" - enjoy!]

thy will be done...

autumn comes

thy will be done

lifeless leaves loose their grip

falling now for that final trip

swept to the shore by whispers of dreams

float away in swirls blue and green

soft subtle shadows rush to the night

calling your name in love's lost light

and so many memories of you

what am i to do
 autumn comes

the cleansing...

no matter what she tried and tried

her heart from inside out had cried

but from herself she could not hide

then she felt the sound of her tears
struggling to drown the ghosts of her fears
keeping them with her always near

sorrow trickling down her face
washing away love’s lost grace
leaving her soul without a trace

blood red moon...

blood red moon

in midnight black

touching you

touching me

 blood red moon

in velvet light

kissing you

kissing me 

blood in the moon

cries love’s tune
sadness to stay
and we both pay 

blood in the moon
love gone too soon
tears in my heart
why did we part

wish i might
have my wish
come true this night
of

blood red moon

- enjoy this post from "words unspoken" in case  you missed it there  -