the blue angel...

she had tried

oh god 

how she had tried                                             

not to look to see                                           
not to think to feel                               
                to smell to taste                             
                to want to need
                to succumb
                to surrender sanity
                to relinquish reality to
that galvanizing first glance
the look
the lock of the eyes
that instantaneous knowing
the gnawing familiarity
the instant intimacy
                for where could it lead?
                but to no man’s land                                       
                no woman’s land                                       
                the land of denial                                       
the land of self-denial

land of deceit deception
the land of no return
the isle  of exile
this dangerous territory
to which they both were
foreigners in a foreign land
                and so it was that
                she took flight
                bolted broke loose escaped
                escaped with her soul intact
                her virtue whole
                her heart held ransom
                vowing never to return
and now -

now 

     she tried
                 oh god  

                               how she tried

to forget
to erase eradicate exterminate
but it was not to be
she was not set free

                                                                                            prey to the polarizing pull

                                                                                                        of cerulean circles 
                                                                                                         relentlessly pursued

hunted stalked and found

                                                                                                     by the blue angel of love

love amytal barbital veronal
love hypnotic
she had been ambushed
taken by brute force                               
ripped away ravaged by                                       
its raging currents                                        
taken to deep dark crevices 

she had never known
chasms long forgot

places where he awaited her

and now held captive

love’s captive

                                                                                                         captivated

                                                                                   a creature confined
                                                                                                              a prisoner held hostage

by the deep

endless

unfathomable

                                                                         sea green oceans
                                                                           of love and lust

[a re-post from "words unspoken" 12/13/2009]