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My photo
A...WOMAN IN MOTION WITH HAIR AS DARK AS NIGHT HER EYES WERE LIKE THAT OF A CAT IN THE DARK... SHE WAS A GYPSYWOMAN... she danced round and round... from the fire her face was all aglow... she was dancing... dancing... waiting for the RISING SUN... loving caring relationships are like THE RISING SUN...we are nourished by their warmth...we are energized by their strength...we grow in their light...we find shelter and solace there...they are our sanctuary... born in the sign of the sun, i am a true LEO-love the sun and its hot orange red fire-passionate in and about everything i do-i believe in instant chemistry charisma love/lust at first sight-in the magic of the eyes and the beauty of the soul-in the instant recognition familiarity in meeting someone from a past life and in the knowledge that we might meet in a future life-i believe that we are each ageless and flawless-i believe in the beauty of the moment-the whisper of yesterday-the hope of tomorrow-the power of forgiveness for even ourselves-the absolute and total beauty of love---[credit to brian hyland and curtis mayfield]

to dance with life

to dance with life
come dance with me...

Monday, May 10, 2010

the lovers...


he thought of her constantly
knowing she was his
gave him comfort 
he had never known before
it soothed him when nothing and
no one else could
it eased his mind
softened his life
it had not begun that way
in the beginning
she was just another object
to him another something
that belonged to him
but with the passage of time
with the passage of his life
his life without love
without hope
without
his casual relationship with her
deepened and grew
with each thing he lost
each person who left him
every thing that escaped him
with every piece of himself
that he lost
he came to think of her more
to depend upon her presence
in his life
she was always there for him
no matter what or when
she was the one constant
in his life now
she would never leave
never hurt him
she offered the
only hope he had
and so it was that his feelings
toward her grew deeper
and deeper still
and when the final loss came
as it was sure to do
the final blow of blows
when he had no one else to turn to
no where else to go
for comfort
for sanctuary
for forgiveness
for love
she was there for him
as he had always known
she would be
she was his
nothing could change that
she gave him all the things
he had never had
she gave him hope
comfort
offered him forgiveness
when he held her
gave him sanctuary
when he touched her
all he had to do was
do the deed
and
she would take him
where he would never
suffer again
forever
and so it was
that on that day of days
he brought her to him
one last time
he looked at her
longingly lovingly
as he held her close
he held her gently
as lovers do
close to his heart
his shattered heart

and then

he
pulled
the
trigger

*in loving memory of bobby horton

11 comments:

GYPSYWOMAN said...

- bobby is the father of three of my grandchildren and left this earth when they were all very young - this is not something i have thought of doing nor is it something i would typically put in this blog - however, this morning there was just this unknown force that dictated the words and the placement of them here - i could not refuse this force whatever it was - thank you -

therese said...

It certainly made an impact on me.
Thank you for posting this. I'm sure I was meant to read it.

Sniffles and Smiles said...

Oh, Jenean...What a powerful poem...reminds me of the poem, turned song, "Richard Cory." Only this is more gritty...and powerful in it's authenticity and horror...Thank you for your courage...it is an incredible poem! My heart is with all of you as I know that one never gets over something like this...Love, Janine XO

GYPSYWOMAN said...

just as i apparently was meant to write it - weird thing today - but there it is - thanks so much for your kind words, therese!

GYPSYWOMAN said...

dear janine! thank you for your kind kind words, as always! i'll have to run over now and check out the richard cory song - my daughter and my grandchildren of course still bear the burden and always will, of course - again, your kind words mean so much, dear lady!

Cole said...

Jenean,

Such a powerful poem and tragic event. Sometimes we have to dive deep into those dark emotions and allow whatever is there to come forth, purging ourselves if only for awhile the intensity of it's emotion. So sorry for the pain each of you have experienced, including your son in laws. Death is never easy to deal with, especially when it is traumatic and violent. I pray your daughter and her children find comfort in one another and you. Thank you for sharing.

Cole

Marlene said...

I was not prepared for that ending..it was very powerful..You needed to release those thoughts today.

Nevine said...

Unbelievably expressed, Jenean. So sad, so filled with suffering, so filled with human emotion... and brokenness. I feel so speechless, here. So so speechless!

Nevine

GYPSYWOMAN said...

yes, cole, so tragic for everyone - even more so because two of his three siblings also committed suicide - such tragedy - but one thing was constant and i have always reminded the children [now adults] of how much bobby loved them - he did truly love them - thanks so much for your kind and caring thoughts!

GYPSYWOMAN said...

hey marlene - you know, it's really weird how i just woke up like that - anyway - must have - thanks so much for coming by!!!

GYPSYWOMAN said...

nevine - yes - i know what you mean - and my heart will always remember the brokenness that bobby must have felt - which leaves me speechless, as well - thanks so much for your caring words and thoughts!